房屋内响起易东来缓缓翻动纸张的沙沙声，上面记录着刚刚李火旺详细告诉他的一切。
In the house, there was the rustling sound of Yi Donglai slowly flipping the paper, which recorded everything that Li Huowang told him in detail just now.
等了有十多分后，易东来抬起头来，“所以就是因为这些，你才觉得自己是季灾，掌管迷惘的天道吗？’”
After waiting for more than ten minutes, Yi Donglai raised his head, “So it is because of these that you feel that you are a season disaster, in charge of the bewildered way of heaven?'”
“嗯”穿着蓝白病号服的李火旺垂着脑袋，双手交叉的点了点头。
“Hmm.” Li Huowang, who was wearing a blue and white hospital gown, lowered his head and nodded with his arms crossed.
“今天吃药了吗？”
“Did you take your medicine today?”
“吃了。”
“Eat.”
“再次确认一下，你现在是否真心有意愿配合我的治疗？在精神领域，患者的心态会对治疗起到决定性的作用。”易东来掏出手机，点开录音放在一旁。
“Confirm again, are you really willing to cooperate with my treatment now? In the spiritual field, the patient’s mentality will play a decisive role in the treatment.” Yi Donglai took out his mobile phone, clicked on the recording and put it aside.
“当然，否则我跟你在这废话干什么，我得病了，我需要你的治疗。”
“Of course, otherwise, why am I talking nonsense with you here? I’m sick and I need your treatment.”
“不，李火旺，你没有明白我的意思，这种愿意是需要你发自内心的，绝对不能逃避的。”
“No, Li Huowang, you didn’t understand what I meant. This kind of willingness needs to come from your heart, and you must never escape it.”
“我李火旺从来不会逃避!”
“I, Li Huowang, will never escape!”
“李火旺，话不能说的太早，我见过很多患者，哪怕他们隐隐知道是幻觉，都会假装看不见。”
“Li Huowang, it’s too early to speak. I have seen many patients, even if they faintly know that it is a hallucination, they will pretend not to see it.”
“K毕竟跟幻觉相比，现实太残酷了，本能驱使着他们躲在自己的幻觉中不出来。”
“Compared with hallucinations after all, reality is too cruel, and their instinct drives them to hide in their hallucinations.”
“就好比让一位掌管天地秩序的至高神明强行承认，他是一位瞎了一只眼睛，高中没毕业，还伴有着严重精神问题，一无是处的青年。”
“It’s like letting a supreme **** in charge of the order of the world forcefully admit that he is a worthless young man who is blind in one eye, has not graduated from high school, and has serious mental problems.”
易东来说完这话停顿下来，给了李火旺充分的考虑时间。
Yi Donglai paused after saying this, and gave Li Huowang enough time to think about it.
“这你放心，那边绝对不是舒适圈，那边绝对比现实残酷多的多。”李火旺想起了什么，抬起右手狠狠咬在自己右手手背上。
“Don’t worry, that side is definitely not a comfort zone, and that side is definitely more cruel than reality.” Li Huowang remembered something, raised his right hand and bit the back of his right hand hard.
“易东来，我无所谓我是不是司命，无所谓是不是季灾!清旺来更不在乎，他这种过河拆桥毫无感情的人，要是他们都是幻觉那倒好了!”
“Yi Donglai, I don’t care if I’m in command or not, and I don’t care if it’s a season disaster! Qing Wanglai doesn’t even care. He’s a person who has no feelings for crossing rivers and tearing down bridges. It would be great if they were all hallucinations!”
“现在一切都结束了，我想要出去，我想要安安稳稳的过日子!”
“Now everything is over, I want to go out, I want to live in peace and security!”
“如果那些真的如你所说都是假的，都是幻觉，那就来吧!不管什么手段都使出来!我都接着!”
“If those things are true as you said, they are all illusions, then come on! Use any means! I will continue!”
李火旺斩钉截铁的说道：“你要有本事让我再也看不见他们，我就信你的话!”
Li Huowang said firmly: “If you have the ability to make me never see them again, I will believe your words!”
“很好，那么现在我告诉你，你曾经的经历到底哪一段是幻觉。”易东来把写满字纸放在李火旺的面前。用手中的笔在字下面画出一条线来。
“Very well, now let me tell you which part of your previous experience was an illusion.” Yi Donglai put the paper full of words in front of Li Huowang. Use the pen in your hand to draw a line under the word.
“这里，瞧见没有，你并没有杀人，也并没有所谓的于儿神司命被你弄死。”
“Here, see, you didn’t kill anyone, and you didn’t kill the so-called God Yuer.”
“也没有人拿枪打你，你身上也没有枪伤，你身上的衣服也不是防弹的。”
“No one shot you with a gun, you have no gunshot wounds, and your clothes are not bulletproof.”
“当时在别人眼里你只是在发神经罢了。他们报警了，所以我们的人才会知道你当时在哪，并且派人开车把你接回来。”
“At that time, in the eyes of others, you were just crazy. They called the police, so our personnel knew where you were at that time, and sent someone to drive you back.”
“不可能啊!”李火旺的脑海中响起那场惊世骇俗的司命大战，随着易东来引导，那段记忆也开始变得不稳定起来。“全都是假的？从一开始都是假的？”
“Impossible!” Li Huowang’s mind was filled with the shocking commanding battle, and with Yi Donglai’s guidance, that memory also became unstable. “Is it all fake? Is it fake from the beginning?”
“不，口说无凭，你需要拿出证据来，就听着你这么干说，我强行说服不了我自己，那一切都是幻觉。”
“No, what you say is not proven, you need to show evidence, just listen to what you say, I can’t convince myself by force, it’s all an illusion.”
“证据我会去找，既然你真心愿意让我治疗你，那你就先试着从整件事情都是幻觉的角度去看待整个问题。”
“I will look for the evidence. Since you are sincerely willing to let me treat you, then first try to look at the whole issue from the perspective that the whole thing is an illusion.”
看到李火旺表情沉重的点了点头，易东来心情这才稍稍好受一些，至少对方肯配合自己了。
Seeing Li Huowang nodding with a serious expression, Yi Donglai felt a little better, at least the other party was willing to cooperate with him.
“来，你看这一条，你说当初钱福死的地方，居然还有装甲车，你想想也知道这有多么不符合逻辑，现在可是法治社会，到处都是监控，你觉得这种大家伙可能会出现在国内吗？所以这一条肯定也是假的。”
“Come on, look at this article. You said that there were armored vehicles in the place where Qian Fu died. If you think about it, you will know how illogical this is. Now it is a society ruled by law and surveillance is everywhere. Is it possible for such a big guy to appear in China? So this article must be false.”
李火旺看着那一行字下面画上了一条线，对着易东来说道：“未必，想办法去查清旺来，去查他的真实身份，如果你说他是假的，那肯定是查不到才对。”
Li Huowang looked at the line drawn under that line, and said to Yi Dong, “Not necessarily, find a way to find out Qing Wanglai, to find out his real identity, if you say he is fake, then It must be impossible to find it.”
“你别用跟我说这些，李火旺，现在是我给你治疗，而不是你给我治疗，明白吗？”
“Don’t tell me this, Li Huowang, I’m treating you now, not you treating me, understand?”
说话间，易东来的手机忽然响了，他拿起手机看了一下，用手指一划，贴在耳边。“喂？狱长？”
During the conversation, Yi Donglai’s cell phone rang suddenly. He picked up the cell phone to look at it, swiped his finger, and stuck it to his ear. “Hello? Warden?”
易东来看了李火旺一眼，走出去接电话了，李火旺只看到易东来在外面，点了几下头又说了什么，便挂掉电话回来了。
Yi Dong took a look at Li Huowang, and went out to answer the phone. Li Huowang only saw Yi Donglai outside, nodded his head a few times and said something, then hung up the phone and came back.
“今天暂时先到这吧，等我整理治疗方案，再开始重新治疗，注意一定别沉迷幻觉。你要认清楚现实。”
“Come here for the time being today, wait for me to sort out the treatment plan, and then start the treatment again, be careful not to indulge in hallucinations. You have to recognize the reality.”
“只要我在乎的人不是幻觉，我绝对能认清现实。”李火旺站了起来。
“As long as the person I care about is not an illusion, I can definitely recognize the reality.” Li Huowang stood up.
不过等他走了几步又停了下来，“易东来，你医术这么高，那治抑郁症应该很好治吗？”
But after he walked a few steps, he stopped again, “Yi Donglai, your medical skills are so good, so depression should be easy to cure?”
易东来推了推鼻梁上的眼镜，饶有兴致的看着李火旺。“你女朋友？我看了几眼她的病历~Soverse.com~外源性的，好治。”
Yi Donglai pushed his glasses on the bridge of his nose and looked at Li Huowang with interest. “Your girlfriend? I took a few glances at her medical records~Soverse.com~Exogenous, easy to cure.”
“真的？”李火旺脸上顿时喜不自胜，自己的算盘还真打对了，抑郁症这种病在他面前根本不在话下。
“Really?” Li Huowang’s face was overjoyed immediately, his calculation was really right, depression is not a problem in front of him at all.
“嗯，外源性抑郁只要远离发病诱因就好治，所以我不能给她治疗，除非我先把你治好了。”
“Well, exogenous depression can be cured as long as you stay away from the triggers, so I can’t treat her unless I cure you first.”
听到这话，李火旺想起了什么，脸色开始变得极差。
Hearing this, Li Huowang remembered something, and his complexion became extremely bad.
“李火旺，你这个年纪以为自己真心就是一切。”易东来的语气不再那么严厉，仿佛像一位长辈在教导晚辈。
“Li Huowang, at your age you think that sincerity is everything.” Yi Donglai’s tone was no longer so harsh, as if an elder was teaching the younger generation.
“但是等你到我这个年纪，就会明白，你真心不真心不重要，重要的是你的真心为你爱的人带来什么。”
“But when you reach my age, you will understand that it doesn’t matter whether you are sincere or not, what matters is what your sincerity brings to the person you love.”
“你别老是站在自己的角度上去看事情，你也可以试着从别人的角度上理解。”
“Don’t always look at things from your own point of view, you can also try to understand from the point of view of others.”
“如果你的爱只会让杨娜更痛苦却选择继续爱下去，那你爱是自私的，你爱的只是你自己而已。”
“If your love will only make Yang Na more painful but you choose to continue loving, then your love is selfish, and what you love is only yourself.”
看着李火旺愣在原地，易东来伸手在他脑袋上拍了拍，转身走了出去。
Seeing Li Huowang standing still, Yi Donglai reached out and patted his head, then turned and walked out.
“我知道你虽然病了，但是你会做出正确选择的。”
“I know that although you are sick, you will make the right choice.”
李火旺就这么站在那里，站了好一会，他脸上微微抖了抖，最终又重新回复平静。
Li Huowang just stood there for a while, his face trembled slightly, and finally returned to calm again.
带着脚镣的他一步一顿继续向着门外走去，最终平静的回到自己空荡荡的病房内。
With his shackles on, he continued to walk towards the door step by step, and finally returned to his empty ward peacefully.
他缓缓把身体缩在床底下，把床单咬在嘴里，双手握拳对着墙面疯狂的捶打起来。
He slowly shrank his body under the bed, bit the sheet in his mouth, and beat the wall frantically with his hands clenched into fists.
手部的疼痛只会让李火旺挥舞着更加卖力，一直到双手彻底血肉模煳，这才停了来。
The pain in his hands will only make Li Huowang swing harder, until his hands are completely bloody, and then he stops.
李火旺把颤抖的双手缩进自己怀里，缓缓把自己蜷缩了起来，过去的曾经两人的美好经历在他脑海中一遍遍晃过。
Li Huowang retracted his trembling hands into his arms, and slowly curled himself up. The beautiful experiences of the two of them in the past flashed through his mind over and over again.