Illimitable Until Death: Hidden flaws in my heart

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“What kind of people are normal people?”

This question can be very funny or very philosophical.

The funny reason is simple, because most people don’t ask such a question for no reason.

If one day, someone around you suddenly asks such a question, your first reaction must be to laugh, right?

After all, normal people would definitely not want to ask such a question out of the blue.

The philosophical reason is even simpler. It is nothing more than that from an objective point of view, it can also become a contentious debate topic.

However, if such a debate question is not in high school, it will never be raised as a homework.

However, Fang Li raised such a question to the teacher on the first day of his first grade in elementary school.

That year, Fang Li was only eight years old.

One can imagine how embarrassed and confused the elementary school teacher standing on the podium and the group of ignorant children around were when such a question came up from the mouth of an eight-year-old child.

From this point of view, Fang Li is no longer a normal person.

Such a question should never be asked of an eight-year-old child.

However, no matter how you look at it, Fang Li is actually a normal person.

When children of the same age are playing, Fang Li is also playing.

When children of the same age are in trouble, Fang Li is also in trouble.

When children of the same age are innocent, Fang Li is also innocent.

When children of the same age are spanking childishly, Fang Li is also spanking childishly.

In other words, Fang Li is neither precocious nor abnormal, he is a normal child both physically and mentally.

However, on the first day of elementary school at the age of eight, Fang Li couldn’t help but ask such a question.

Because, the ignorant Fang Li knew the only difference between him and the rest.

That year, Fang Li was only seven years old.

Before the age of seven, Fang Li grew up as an ordinary child.

At that time, because the parents had to work all day long to support the family, the person who most often accompanied Fang Li was his grandfather.

Grandpa loves Fang Li very much.

When Fangli wanted to play, grandpa would play with Fangli.

When Fangli was scolded by his parents, his grandfather would come out to defend Fangli.

When Fang Li was injured, grandpa would comfort Fang Li, who was in unbearable pain.

When Fang Li became interested in a toy, Grandpa would also buy that toy just to make Fang Li happy.

Therefore, Fang Li also likes Grandpa very much.

Even when he grows up, Fang Li can take it for granted that the person around him is his grandfather.

How would you react when such a person disappeared from your world?

Before, Fang Li had not considered this issue.

But when he was seven years old, Fang Li had to think about it.

“Woo… woo woo…”

The cry echoed throughout the space.

Some of them are extremely depressed, some are unscrupulous, but anyone can feel the sadness and sadness inside.

Beneath that cry, the entire vast space was filled with a sad atmosphere.

Under the cries, the ignorant children were rendered, crying one by one.

Fang Li was in such an environment, one hand was held by his mother, and his eyes were cast in front of him.

There, there is a black and white photo.

The person in the photo is Fang Li’s grandfather.

Looking at that photo, Fang Li really misses his grandpa.

Fang Li knew that the people around him also missed Grandpa very much, so he shed tears at this time.

However, Fang Li couldn’t even shed a single tear.

Even though the parents were crying and the adults and children around were crying, Fang Li still couldn’t cry.

So, Fang Li asked.

“Mom, why are you all crying?”

At that time, the tearful mother answered Fang Li like this.

“…Because, Grandpa will not come back.”

Fang Li knows.

Fang Li still knows this fact.

Fang Li knew that Grandpa would never come back.

But…

“But, why do you have to cry like this?”

When Fang Li asked such a question, his mother’s expression was both surprised and puzzled.

Then, my mother answered Fang Li like this.

“Grandpa will not come back, normal people will feel sad and sad, so they will cry.”

Hearing this sentence, Fang Li said nothing.

However, Fang Li had a question in his heart.

“Should normal people cry at this time?”

It is because of this that Fang Li asked the teacher such a question when he was eight years old.

It was only when I grew up that I realized that it was indeed a matter of course.

The death of a loved one is a matter of course for a normal person to cry.

Because, it will be sad and sad, that’s normal people.

From a psychological point of view, when a person’s subjective world and the objective world have the principle of unity, it is normal.

Because psychology is a reflection of objective reality, any normal mental activity and behavior must be consistent with the objective environment, even if only in form and content.

When a person’s spirit or psychology loses unity with the external environment, then this person must not be understood by others.

At that time, the person will become an anomaly.

Therefore, from this theoretical point of view, Fang Li is not a normal person.

That day, Fang Li did not cry.

When others are sad, Fang Li has only peace in his heart.

When others take it for granted, Fang Li has only doubts in his heart.

When others were crying and weeping, Fang Li was only surprised.

So out of place, even ruthless, how can it not be abnormal?

No matter how you say it, the other party has raised himself since childhood, has a very good relationship with him, and is his favorite relative.

Such a person has passed away and will never be seen again. It is precisely because he is a child that he should be more saddened, right?

However, from the beginning to the end, Fang Li never felt the slightest bit of sadness, the slightest bit of sadness, or even the urge to shed a single tear.

At that time, the adults didn’t care about this, it was only because Fang Li really didn’t understand the meaning of death, or was a little precocious and wasn’t affected by the children around him, so he was rendered crying.

Only Fang Li, in a state of ignorance, understood one thing.

That is…

“I’m not like the people around me…”

That was Fang Li’s only thought at the time.

After growing up, Fang Li understood why he was like that at the time.

Not only because Fang Li has become sensible, but also because Fang Li has inevitably experienced the same thing several times.

At that time, Fang Li was also unable to cry or feel sad.

Then, Fang Li understood.

No matter how important the other party is to you and how close you are to yourself, once he (she) dies, he will never shed a tear or feel any sadness.

That’s not because Fang Li is ignorant, nor is it because Fang Li is too ruthless.

That’s just a flaw.

Yi Fang Li began to be ignorant at the age of seven, a personality defect hidden deep in his heart.

“I have no way of feeling emotional about someone else’s death…”

Then…

“I must not be able to develop feelings for my own death…”

This fact was confirmed when Fang Li was eighteen years old.

“Bang————!”

It was an extremely loud crash.

At the moment when the sound of the impact sounded, Fang Li only felt that the world was spinning for a while. When his vision was restored, the first thing that entered his field of vision was a piece of sky.

However, the sky was gradually dyed red, and gradually replaced by black.

The red color appears because Fangli’s iris has begun to bleed.

The black appeared because Fang Li’s consciousness began to disappear.

At this moment, Fang Li only felt that his body was no longer his own. He couldn’t even move, or even felt.

The only feeling in Fangli was—the heat.

It’s hot.

Very hot.

The whole body is hot.

Around, pedestrians began to gather around, appearing in Fang Li’s blurry vision.

Fang Li had no way to hear what they were saying.

However, Fang Li was able to perceive a panic and fear surrounding him.

And my body that is heating up seems to be losing something important~IndoMTL.com~ The ground below me starts to get wet.

Fang Li turned his head with difficulty and saw the oil parking road that was close at hand.

There, it is gradually dyed red.

It was dyed red by the blood flowing from Fang Li’s body.

So, Fang Li finally understood.

The important thing in my body that is losing is not just blood, but life.

At the same time, Fang Li realized what happened.

A car accident.

It was just a sudden accident.

There are more than 100,000 accidents in this country every year.

Fang Li is just one of the 100,000 car accidents this year.

“So…”

Fang Li instantly accepts his destiny.

No resentment, no resentment, not even fear or resistance.

After all, Fang Li has no way to have any emotions about “death”.

This is a fact that I started to realize when I was seven years old.

Now, it’s just a confirmation.

If you want to say how Fang Li feels about his imminent death, there is only one.

“Where do people go when they die?”

With such a thought, Fang Li closed his eyes.

At the moment when Fang Li completely lost consciousness, a cold voice poured into his mind.

“Number 11273 entered the main **** space.”

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